This world is a mess.
Every day it gets crazier to be alive in these times.
Unfortunately, believers want to be like the people God sent them to reach.
It’s so subtle in these times that without the Holy Spirit, we will get side-tracked.
A few years ago, I met two amazing people. I had prayed for godly friends in that difficult season. And God is good. He answered.
Unfortunately, things get messy when we turn from the giver to the gifts.
Things were great for a while. We hung out, prayed together, and attended events together.
Then suddenly, the calls stopped, the outings stopped, the prayers ceased. Every time I asked, they complained of being busy and time getting away from them.
I couldn’t wrap my mind around the silence. For a long time, I felt hurt beyond words. All the while, I was talking to God, asking Him what went wrong and why.
This time was somewhat dark for me.
I questioned why God brought them into my life. I doubted my worth.
For a while, I was sad and unable to focus on new relationships. I was scared.
My relationship with God grew through all of these because I learned to lean on Him and trust Him exclusively.
Sad as I was, I couldn’t hold a grudge, but I didn’t sustain the communication. I couldn’t.
Then one night while praying, the Holy Spirit said to me, “You have suffered so much not because these people have a problem. The real problem is you, honey.”
If it had been any other person, I would have unleashed self-righteous rage on them. However, this was the Holy Spirit. He knows everything, so I listened.
He said, “You don’t know who you are, so you tied your identity and worth to a relationship with them. Now they’re just humans and, they couldn’t keep up.”
Then God took me to Luke 3:38:
“Kenan was the son of Enosh. Enosh was the son of Seth. Seth was the son of Adam. Adam was the son of God.”
Then God said to me, “Your identity is not determined by who is or isn’t in your life at any time. Nor should it be built on what you have, or have done, or not done. Your identity is that you are My child. And as My child, you have only one job.”
“So don’t hide your light. Let it shine brightly. Be generous with your life that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven.”
He continued, “Know what else? You don’t get to do much besides submit to Me. For it is God who works in you to will and to do according to His good pleasure.”
That night, God performed a major operation on me and then declared, “I have given you a new heart, and I have made you whole.”
Shortly after, He restored my relationships.
It had been an arduous and painful journey, but God finally had me where He wanted me.