There are days when I feel like sleeping for a long, long time but then, morning comes and I just have to wake up and face another monstrous twenty four hours.
Don’t get me wrong. I’m grateful for life. I’m thankful I’m not tucked in a hospital bed, with oxygen masks and tubes to aid my breathing.
It’s just, I’m not exactly where I want to be right now and well, I know a lot of you can relate. I understand the need to be grateful for each day but some days are harder than others.
So I’m curled up on my sofa, asking myself sincerely, “how am I?”. Some have asked but it’s so easy to respond to that without thinking. Besides not everybody wants to be bothered by another’s stress.
So I’m angry. I’m sad. I’m tired. I’m distressed. I’m frustrated. I’m pained. I’m misunderstood. I’m lonely. I’m faithless. I’m suicidal. I’m depressed. I’m ashamed….
But it’s okay. Maybe it isn’t right now but it’ll be okay. And these aren’t mere words. If you seem caught between the devil and the deep blue sea, just breath. God’s got you!
I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out – plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for. (Jeremiah 29:11).